Hi diary,
It’s me again. I keep having fantasizes of having triplets with Mas, and it came to again this morning. The realization that I might not have kids. My dream twins and 1 boy.
It ached my heart knowing this. It’s like when I realized that I don’t miss Ryan. It’s that I miss his companionship, his friendship. Like if he died today, I would miss him. I miss his presence. Because it made me feel like I don’t need to keep looking for another partner. I don’t need to think about who I’m to sleep next to for the rest of my life