Dear diary,
I feel sleepy.
I wonder if it’s enough. Who I am and who I am becoming
If I am trying enough or there is not point in trying at all because it will go to shit
Lately, the affirmations I keep thinking is:
*I am worthwhile
*I love and approve of myself
Again, I wonder if it’s enough. If I am enough. I love auntie Cisca. She’s the mother I have always wanted
But is she the mother that I need?
When did I start doubting my own worth or abilities?
That’s a stupid question. Because I have ALWAYS doubted my worth and ability’s.
Only after my divorce did I start to again or learn to gain self worth. And I am still learning.
What opportunities have I talked myself out of in the past? Why?
Living in the dorms. My birth mother choose her only son over me. Even when I choose the school she wanted for me. But more for like herself